Nani

I fell off the blogging radar again. This time it was because I was avoiding writing a post and have been avoiding it for a very long time. I think I'm ready now to really express how I feel and to share everything else that has been going on.

On October 7, 2009 my grandma unexpectedly passed away. Nani was a wonderful grandma and an even better great grandma. I was always so happy for Aydan that he knew his great grandma, he had the chance to know someone from another generation.

Nani would always tell me to teach Aydan Urdu so she would be able to talk to him too. I would tell her that he understands it but doesn't really speak it and she kept insisting I make sure he speaks it too. Aydan out of the blue has started speaking a little bit of Urdu and I know Nani would be so happy if she was here to see it. He may not be able to speak to her now but when he's older I'll always tell him that his Nani who loved him a lot wanted him to know how to speak Urdu.

Aydan really loved Nani and anytime we would be going to my parents house and I would tell him that everyone is going to be there, he would always ask me, "Nani coming too?"

A week before she passed, we were all at my Uncle's house -that was the last time most of us saw her healthy and happy. A few hours into the party, Aydan noticed Nani. I guess he missed her during his rounds of hello to everyone. When he saw her, he genuinely got so happy, he came running to me and was telling me "Nani, Nani!" I told him to go and say hello to her, and he ran over and gave her the biggest hug and kiss. That is one of my last memories of Nani and it may even be my favorite. I use that memory to block out seeing her sick on the hospital bed.

I just wish Nani hung in there to see another great grandchild but she didn't. I know she is happy and pain-free now and that's all that matters.

I miss you so much Nani and I'm sure Aydan does too!